May 2012
12 posts
Whew
So it’s been an eventful weekend, for sure. I drove up to Dallas to visit Grace and her parents were nice to me (which was MAD weird). They sent me home with a pound bag of jerky even though i was cool on whatever, but it was a nice gesture. Chilled with Grace all day, we took azn pics at a Korean supermarket I want to explore soon, and then we chilled. Managed to snag some alone time in...
April 2012
31 posts
Stress is pointless
Just reviewed calculation theory with Adam, and I’ve got this. I’ve got a list of equations and helpful tips, I’ve got the knowledge, and It’s going fuckin down. I’ve been absolutely on edge this week, and I’ve taken it out on Grace, and that’s wrong. I know it is, but I can only hope to make up for it after this exam.
But now it’s time to...
I've made the decision
to stop smoking for a while. 4/20 was great, but it’s crunch time and I need to detox. I’ve felt myself get closer and closer to being completely burnt out and lazy, and I need to be able to function. I haven’t decided how long I’m going to quit for, but i need to clean myself out.
I’m quitting cigarettes as soon as all of my finals/projects are turned in, which...
“i feel like you’re my private underwear model already”
– The Grace
I just can't do it.
After reviewing my Friday, I’ve realized that I could never be completely surrounded by white people. That’s my huge worry about oil right now, what if everybody totally sucks? What if I can’t be myself? How will I be able to deal with endless talk of how much shit costs or who’s done what to who’s what. It’s so fucking stupid.
And after djing that party...
Jesus
Chem test at 7:45
Homework 9:15-10
Shower: 10-10:20
Class: 10:50-12:05
Home: 12:05-3:00
Band: 3-5:30
Coach Interview: 6-6:30/7
DJ Practicing: 7:30-9
Homework: 9-10
Watch tv and talk to Grace: 10-12:30/1/2
So little time left before my day gets amazing, but it takes SO LONG
Ray 1, Her Dad 0
“why’d he get you a pizza? that’s kind of weird. actually, no, that’s really nice. he has a good character. does he treat you this well in person? is he cold to you when youre at school but nice now that you’re away? no? well that’s good. it’s good to see that he has some principles. i thought he treated you coldly by not hanging out with you but then if...
Grace came to visit
my confidence in life is restored, and I no longer feel like im on the verge of shattering.
Yay.
March 2012
14 posts
I'm officially broken.
i didn’t think these pieces could get any fucking smaller.
"We were so cute together"
I know,
and that’s what’s made all of this hardship do much more difficult for me. It upsets me that it took you until now to acknowledge that we were perfect together and your actions were hurting me/us.
